I am at a point where I'm scared that God will say, "This is not for you, let it go", because this is something that I want badly. I haven't wanted something this badly for quite some time now.
This makes me wonder, where did all my faith go? Why do I place more importance in this desire, rather than God's promises? O God, give me faith in Your words, that Your master plan in my life is much more beautiful than my perfect plan.
Help me so I can rise above this insecurity.